Schooled In

On the 11-ail, Agnes spent the greater part of her days with her sister

On the trail, Agnes spent the greater part of her days with her sister Elizabeth, even though her sister had been newly married. But the dislocation she felt persisted: “O I feel lonesome today sometimes I can govern myself but not always but I schooled in pretty well considering all things.” The phrase is a nice one–”schooled in.” It meant that one drew in the reins of emotion and hid from the world those ways in which one was vulnerable. Emigrant women tried not to reveal their emotions. But to her diary, Agnes confided: “0 Martha, what I would give to see you now …. I miss you more than I can find words to express I do not wish to forget you but your memory Is painful to me I will see you again I will if I am ever able I will go back.”